Chrissy Teigen is getting candid about letting alcohol back into her life.
Teigen, who has been open about her sobriety journey throughout the years, revealed that she’s recently relapsed, describing alcohol as a “beast.”
“Oh man. I’ve been dreading today’s podcast release since the moment we shot it. And that has nothing to do with my incredible guest,” she wrote on Instagram. “Holly Whitaker changed my life, changed my perspective and changed how I view the fucking beast that is alcohol. But to have to admit to all of you: I let it back into my life. to let a lot of you down, oh I feel it deeply.”
Showing support in the comments, her husband singer John Legend wrote, “Always proud of you.”
The “Lip Sync Battle” alum started sharing her alcohol journey publicly in 2021 but admits she’s still learning to navigate her path to sobriety. “The truth is, I don’t know what I’m doing,” she went on. “I one hundred percent know I like me better sober,” she continued in the post. I one hundred percent know I get more done, I absolutely feel better in my body without it.”
“Your rational mind is probably like ‘OK THEN STOP, B—H!’ and god, do I f–king AGREE!,” the 39-year-old wrote. “All I know is my relationship with the whole process of sobriety (and messing up) has changed for the better. I am deeply aware of where this can go if I let it.”
Despite the recent set back, the 39-year-old mom of four acknowledges the progress she’s made over the past few years. “Photos of my kid’s birthday parties are no longer me with bleary, sleepy drinking eyes. And I am proud of that. But I still know my relationship with alcohol just isn’t normal and never will be.”
Teigen ended the post with encouraging words for anyone who is also struggling with their relationship with alcohol.
“Thank you for allowing me to figure it out openly in front of you all,” Chrissy gushed. “This is for all the people who are figuring it out. And to the sober community, god I am still so, so proud of you. Until we meet again.”
